Tanzania (P10) -Echo 7, Mass Arguments, Stars and Yellow.

28th July

Not sure why I haven’t been writing in here when I’m bored all the time! Well most of it. I’ll talk about the significant events of the week so far as it’s Thursday.

Even though it was last Saturday we went to see echo 7 and I had no idea what girls were in it. So we turned up after the bumpiest ride in a taxi ever and stood there was Keisha! Never jumped out the back of a car so fast in my life. Missed that girl so much. I wrote her a letter on training and she wrote me one back and it said we would be life long friends which is amazing. She’s such a sound girl and we have the best banter. Can’t wait to see her and Nicole at mid phase (only 3 days to wait!) because it’ll be so much fun. And I have to ask Nicole about the Issa situ.

That day at echo 7 I had an argument with a shop keeper for charging me too much. She gave me some money back but still not the right amount. Think it was because I was a new white person in the village. Life goes on. Everything is cheap enough out here anyway. It was such a long day and went to bed at 8 once I got home!

Monday we took the letter to the school to ask if we could go teach and they said yes! Me, Lucie, Daniel and Gerald sat in this nice headteachers office with nice sofas waiting for an answer.

Tuesday was an interesting day. We were having a daily afternoon meeting and Issa was getting slightly het up telling people to listen in Swahili so I literally just said ‘DOn’t be so fucking rude’. Didn’t think much of it until he was talking loudly to Novah (Gerald in between) pointing to me so clearly bitching. So we called him out on it because it was in front of everyone and made me look like a mug seeing as all the Tanzanians  could understand him. Instead it could have been a personal discussion. But then everyone got really aggressive towards me and those defending me and turned very personally directed. It was all shouting and balling and even Novah showed a very nasty streak. It was dealt with in such a horrible way and that was the argument again. At this point I was starting to cry so walked off and into the church and sobbed to Ella.

It really made me want to go home because in a home situation I could have the choice not to surround myself with that sort of person. Here, I have no choice.

We got called out for something but I just sat and heard more arguments escalate. One about bananas and racism and one about UKV’s being lazy.

Thing is I could have happily flipped but I just took myself away from it which I’m proud of. Maybe I shouldn’t have said what I did but thats me, and now I’ve never been so sure of who I am. I am not being put in a box, especially here when we are so restricted.

Eventually, I snapped out of it and Joe was helpful as he said not to let it and someone ruin this experience for me. It was just frustrating as I don’t cry over nothing and thats when I knew it has gotten to me.

Me and Issa spoke for the first time today on the way home where I got a lecture for giving Juma a hard time about ‘the relationship’. I was trying to explain that I have feelings for someone in the UK. I also spoke to Juma on the phone and he asked me out again! It”s easier to handle now because I have things to say.

Yesterday was an absoulety  (oops) absolutely incredible day. Definitely one of the best. This morning, I can’t even tell you what I did but after lunch, where I got 2 good pieces of meat and a bit of Kieran and Connors left over chicken, we went to the primary school to teach.

In my group was me, Lucie, Kieran, Issa and Daniel and we worked so well together teaching 3 huge groups of children (enthusiastic children) head, shoulders, knees and toes and days of the week (in song to adam’s family tune) and numbers! In English that is. To be fair, most of them knew them, not the songs, already. And I learnt how to say: Louder, be careful and something else which I’ve clearly forgotten in Swahili. It was really amazing to see the children so excited and willing. Not to mention me.  My cheeks were hurting from smiling so much. We halved one of the groups and made them have a competition to see who was louder and I physically had to step back as they started as they were so loud! Such an experience. We are going every Wednesday now. Yay!

Joe and Novah and the Tanzanians cooked for us. Chicken, chips, omelette and salad and it was so good. The only thing was that at one point we saw the woman with a live chicken and then Issa come grab a knife from in front of us to go kill it. Kieran said he could kill a chicken but didn’t even though he had the opportunity as he believes something to do with being able to know where our meat comes from and what happens. Blah.

It was dark when we finished and we all started walking home. Anna realised she had Novah’s flip flops on and ran back to change.

While she did, we all looked at the stars which are so many and crystal clear here. We had a group hug, minus Ella and TZV’s and I started singing Coldplay ‘Yellow’ and they joined in. Literally one of the most euphoric, emotional and best times in my life and it will be remembered and treasured forever.

 

 

Tanzania (P9) – Attenborough, Girlfriend and Ginge.

20th July

Today I’ve come back in an amazing mood and just genuinely happy.

This morning me and Isa went into town and got 3 more, maybe 4 more mentors which is amazing. We were sat in the hair dressers and on TV was a David Attenborough documentary and there would be a nice, calm English bit then as a translation a booming Swahili which was funny but so loud. It was like cartwheeling baboons but then I hid from that animal I hate. I never remember what it’s called. It begins with A though.

This afternoon we went to Joe’s and all the UKV’s had a right bonding session talking about bad first dates, sex stories, drinking, fruit, like everything! I really enjoyed it.

I genuinely have time for everyone in the group even though we are all such different people.

Just starting to bop to Trap Queen as I’m writing! Miss town right now.

Anyway, I had the usual walk home with Juma asking me to be his girlfriend. I have great skills in avoiding the questions. I don’t let it phase me anymore. He’s so lovely though bless him!

Last night I found out Isa goes out with my friend Nicole too!

Today, I turned on my phone to a cute message from Ali saying that he’s so happy at the minute and he’s not even seen me. It’s so weird like I feel the same. He makes me feel on top of the world. just hope it lasts. It makes it so much easier to do this knowing in just over 6 weeks I hopefully have my little ginge to come home to. As much as I would kill to see him, I know it’s gonna be so worth the wait. He also appreciated his post card which I’m happy about; I wasn’t sure how well he would take it but it was well received (?).

Clocks just came on how fitting. Nearly cried, I love good music.

Not much else to say apart from lunch was shit as usual so over and out.

Tanzania (P8) -Continued, Football, Rats and Bullshit.

18th July.

Yesterday – Saturday – it was lunch time. I think I was going to write about about the football match so it was us against the actual village football team who had a kit and everything. I was the only girl playing but I retired after 5 mins because they were so brutal! Fun though.

When I sat down with the others we were actually surrounded by kids, quite scary. There were so many people watching, which was amazing. We drew 3-3.

The little girl in front got hit by the ball and literally just silently sobbed for a minute and was fine; a kid in the UK would ball for an hour!

It was such a good day but then the walk home killed us off.

I forgot to mention, the little bit of dancing after lunch, the last song was Diamonds by Rihanna (?) just for us white people.

Yesterday, we went to Joe’s after clothes washing – I sort of just rinsed and then Isa washed a pair of shorts for me, and 2 tops, because I couldn’t get them clean.

Lunch was gross, I got the bit of meat that looked like fur so Ana swapped me!

We watched Shrek 4 at Joe’s, it’s shit. I had a good time though, even just chilling.

Lucie was emotional because the rats in her house are really bad. She paid for some cement for the family to sort it as it’s not in Raleigh’s budget.

I got home and there was no electric so we ate by torch light. It was awful and made me realise how poles apart my life at home is. I literally ate and then went to bed.

I also made chapatis Saturday night, from scratch and we didn’t eat them all for breakfast this morning so I took them to training!

After training, the UKV’s and Juma and Gerald went to the VEO office and had a few games of bullshit which was proper fun. Lucie didn’t come though!

Tanzania (P7) – Action Day, Adele and Blagged Speech.

17th July

It’s been a full week since I wrote but that’s probably because we haven’t done much up until yesterday.

Yesterday was our first action day.

Right now Adele Hello is on the radio! Insane!

We had music in the field outside the church with these huge speakers and microphones which Isa and Juma commanded. And kept shouting Abi when I was dancing. At one point I was the only UKV there. There were loads of people watching and a few joining in! So crazy. Then we had a few speeches and I forgot to prepare so I just blagged mine. After lunch of chips and chips mayaye – chip omelette we had a

Tanzania (P6) -Day Off, Snail, Travelling.

10th July

So today is our day off and so far I’ve washed my clothes and got dirtier than they started. Later, we’re all going for a walk but surprise, surprise Ana isn’t coming.

We had an argument last night because she wanted to go a different way home even though we’d never been that way and it was getting dark. She was prepared to leave me on my own as well which is such a dick move. I’d already waited like 2 hours for her to have a medical because she wanted biscuits!

Luckily, I got my way but I ‘stormed’ off at normal pace and she proceeded to walk like a snail.

She said I didn’t know where I was going. Bullshit. She didn’t speak to me until this morning.

Yesterday I had chips and a chip omelette for lunch, followed by pepsi, a lolly and sweets.

Last night I managed like a 40min WhatsApp call with Ali which is genuinely just what I needed. I don’t think he realises how much he keeps me going sometimes. I hope one day we get together, I like him a hell of a lot to keep talking like we do and it not come to anything. He keeps saying he wants to go travelling which would be incredible, I’d get to share the world with someone I truly care about which would honestly complete me. Just hope it sticks until I get home and I don’t get fucked over, it would hurt me so much. But then again we’re not together so.

Just have to wait and see.

Tanzania (P5) – Tired and Lost.

8th July. Morning.

So last night I was interrupted and after I was too tired to carry on writing.

Me, Kieran, Maddy and Ella got lost on the way back to my homestay last night and everyone came searching. We were ages and then two guys stopped next to us on a bike, think they were drunk but thankfully it was John and Isa’s baba and he knew my name and said they were following us as they knew we were lost. They then walked us to my house. I literally pounced on my mama when I saw her.

So I’d settled down and then Daniel turned up looking for Kieran who had left.

Then this morning I also found out that Joe was also looking for us too! Shit! Oh well, we’ve learnt where we went wrong, straight on at the big tree instead of right.

Last night was the first time I missed home properly but cute texts in a morning keep me going.

8 weeks today and I’ll be in the UK.

Tanzania (P4) – Entrepeneurship and Relationship.

7th July.

Today was a good day, evening pretty interesting. So it started by giving a speech about what an entrepreneur is which Isa and Juma translated for me to a group of Tanzanians. It was pretty inspiring that they listened to me despite not knowing a word of English, I felt slightly empowered.

Then we did a bit of waiting around, as per, but I had some insightful conversations and a lot of sunbathing until I got too hot! At one point I had taken my flip flops off and they ended up in the middle of a group talk but being bare foot for a while was good.

I then learnt that my phone screen had been smashed somehow and now my selfie camera doesn’t work – first world problems.

Also, gossip of the day is that ginger, white, Irish John is in a relationship with bongo, Tanzanian Grace! Ooooo. Lets see how long it lasts.

We then all watched Kung Fu Panda 3, well most of it until the laptop cut out. Oh before that we went into town to do more surveys and I bought some material and it’s being made into a top and skirt for me. I get it tomorrow and it cost me a whole £6 equivalent!

Me, Kieran,